Friday, April 18, 2014

Make Moves

There is a song that my sons loves and at first I wasn't a big fan of it until I listened to the words. It is a fast lyric Christian rap song, which I have nothing against. I love the ministry of Christian rappers like Lecrae, Trip Lee, and Flame but the song just didn't grab me. I decided to put it on my workout playlist. As I worked out at the gym and listened to the words of this fast and furious poet I was deeply inspired by his words and heart. Most of the lyrics are to fast my brain can not process them but these words hung in my heart and they continue to challenge me...

"I've got two choices. Make moves or make excuses. My biggest enemy is me." Andy Mineo

Life is short. We only get one chance to live love and live brave. I have two choices and I am tired of making excuses. It is time for me to get out of the way and make moves.

I am ready.

“Yesterday is gone. Tomorrow has not yet come. We have only today. Let us begin.”
― Mother Teresa

Tuesday, April 15, 2014

What if?

"Do one thing everyday that scares you." Eleanor Roosevelt

Honestly, just the thought of these words scare me. It scares me because I have a lot of things that scare me, things that I like to keep safely tucked away, but what if? What if I took these wise words and placed them at the core of my everyday? What if I believed in myself and took up this age old dare to live brave?

Who might I uncover? Who will I find buried under the rubble of fear?

I was talking to my husband the other day about my fear issues and I couldn't help but wonder. Who would I be if I didn't care what people thought of me, if I didn't live in that place of fear? If I could really be me, who would I be?

As I write this I wonder if I am brave enough to take the challenge, to be vulnerable, and to face my fears. I know that I am tired of just surviving and hiding from who I was created to be. As Emily Freeman would say, it is time to uncover the art I was made to live.

What do I have to loose? Better yet, what do I have to gain?

Wednesday, March 5, 2014

Scared Brave

Everyday I think about writing here, about sharing what is on my heart, and everyday the words just don't come. I can not say for sure why they don't show up because my heart is so full of things to share. I believe a lot of it is fear. Fear of not saying it just right.

I am an over thinker, a perfectionist in a strange way. If you were to visit my home you wouldn't think I was a perfectionist but deep down I am. I am a mess, my home is usually a mess. We live here, I live here, but before you come over I do a very good job of cleaning up, of pretending. Can anyone relate?  If I can not find the perfect words to be said in the perfect way then I just choose not to say them at all or invite you over. ;)

Is that anyway to live?

Scared of being imperfect? Scared of someone seeing my mess, the real me? A beautiful mess?

Aren't we all?

Somewhere along the way... I lost my way. My passion for this blog was to be honest, to be real, to be openly imperfect. I don't want to give off the impression that I have things figured out and I definitely do not want to only share my life when I think I have the perfect words and images. I just want to be a real mom who shares her real struggles and victories with you. I want to be honest with myself.

And honestly I am scared and honestly I am tired of being scared. I just want to jump off the end of my comfort zone and believe in God and in myself.

Starting right now in this moment I am ready to live brave even though I am scared to death.

And so this is where I share with you again my one word for 2014, the real word. The word that I was to afraid to admit, to afraid to choose.


Brave is the word that He gave me, the word that I tried to ignore, tried to cover up under good intentions.

This year I am looking forward to learning how to live brave even though I am scared even as I write this! ;)
(So please excuse my posts as I will not be as worried about perfecting them as about simply posting them, if you know what I mean)

Sunday, January 5, 2014

The art of being devoted

What does it mean to be devoted? 

I think what it means to me is believing that my daily callings are worthy of my time and energy. It means doing things I don't want to do because I have faith that they are for a greater unseen to me right now good. 

In Websters New World dictionary devoted is to set apart for a special use or service; to give up (oneself or ones time, energy, ect.) to some purpose, activity, or person. Set apart and give up stand out to me. If I truly want to be devoted in 2014 then I must learn the art of these two sets of words, unfinished sentences to be finished. 

Jim Elliot one of my heros of the faith once said, "Live to the hilt every situation you believe to be the will of God." This life is short and we only get one chance to live it right. Live it on purpose. Set yourself apart for His will and give up your time and energy to be all there. Move. Get up and take the steps required to live fully committed and deeply devoted. 

This is my goal. To be set apart and to give up myself to be all here. 

What about you? 

Thursday, January 2, 2014

One Word 2014

Today was the first day of the new year. The number 1 doubled, 1-1-2014. It is really hard to believe that it really is 2014, that I am really 33 with 4 children one of which is 13 years old. How did that happen? This year will mark 14 years of being married and still crazy in love. How did that happen? It's a long story, one I hope to tell this new year.

 This year full of hope as we stand at the starting line, is going to be full of challenges. Some that we will bring willingly upon ourselves and others that we will receive unwillingly. Either way, it will be full. I am looking forward to all of the challenges because I know that they will force me to grow further outside of myself. They will be uncomfortable, thank you. That is where we need to be and I am looking forward to it as much as I am not. If that makes any sense.

Last year I challenged myself to Live and I am not sure if I did but I know that I made some kind of imperfect progress and I am surprisingly okay with that. This year I am challenging myself to give, to share, to dream, to plan, and be brave all forged into one simple little blue word.

I have agonized over my one word. Just. One. I can only choose one, word for an entire year. How can I do that when there are so many words that I can fit into my agenda of change in 2014?

Well, it's easy. Smile. No it isn't, it was hard but the more I thought and asked God to show me what I needed to work on the more words entered into my One Word bucket until this one: devoted. The one word that all the other words became.

Discipline. Brave. Give. Purpose. Intentional. They are all apart of being a devoted mother, wife, housekeeper, artist, dreamer, and world changer. In every pursuit of my life whether it be iphoneography or regular photography, washing the dishes or listening to my husband after a long hard day, organizing closets or writing a post, teaching my 6 year old to read or sharing a meal with friends I want to do it with devotion and with love.

I struggle to follow through with things, look at my bookshelf and see all of my almost read books. I tend to do things half way instead of all the way and I am tired of it. I need a challenge to be a finisher. I may not have started strong but I want to finish strong. To strive to be more, what's the word? Oh, yeah.

Here's to 2014!! Cheers!! Oh yeah and follow me on Instagram as I start a #365daysof portraits challenge and here for the month of Janaury as I strive to write 500 words a day for 31 day with Jeff Goins and other striving to be devoted writers.

Thursday, December 5, 2013

Coffee Talks with Jesus || A Review

My dear sweet friend wrote a book. A book that I am honored to be given the chance to review for her. Barbie is one of my closest friends, which may seem weird considering I have never met her. She lives in my home-state California and I know that one day our stories will cross whether it is on this side of eternity or the other. We will meet and I look forward to the day that I am blessed to hug her neck and share a real cup of coffee. Barbie is the real deal. If you don’t know her you are missing a real treasure. She blogs consistently and genuinely at My Freshly Brewed Life.

Barbie was there for me in a time when I really needed a friend, someone to walk along side me and remind me that I am not alone in this journey. She has a way of making you feel special, loved, and like you are worth something and all through the online world of blogging. Her words are not just words, they are words with flesh on them. They mean something. She is truly an inspiration to me and I admire her deep love for God’s beauty and truth.
 Barbie is a spokesman of God’s grace and abiding love.

Her book Coffee Talks with Jesus: Intimate Chats with theSavior is a 31 day devotional filled with the words and the heart of Jesus. You will leave each devotional feeling lighter and fuller. Each day you will see yourself through His eyes, through the words and heart of Christ. You will be reminded of how deeply you are loved no matter how deeply messed up you feel. His truth and light penetrates through each page and exposes all of the lies and darkness that surround you. Each devotional meets you right where you are.
At the end of each daily devotional you will be encouraged to reflect and dig deeper into yourself to draw you deeper into Him. You will walk away feeling closer to God.
I highly recommend Babies book, it is a treasure, and  don't we all need to be reminded of how much God loves us, every day? It is the perfect devotional for every woman who longs to fill her soul with the sweet fragrance of Christ.
So, grab  Barbie's book, a cup of coffee or your favorite drink, and slip into a place of quiet rest with Jesus.
He’s calling you to come and sit a while. He longs to share His heart with you. In the midst of the quiet and in the middle of the hustle and bustle, He is here, waiting for you. I can hear Him now.
“Come to me. My child. My precious daughter. For I long to share my heart with you today. Will you stop for just a moment and allow yourself to be still so I can talk with you today?...”
~ Coffee Talks with Jesus

Tuesday, November 12, 2013

Be the change you wish to see in the World: Part I

I read this this morning and then I read this.

God prepared my heart for the brokenness He poured in through Darlene's words, through Jesus' words.
“…I tell you the truth, when you did it to one of the least of these my brothers and sisters, you were doing it to me!” (Matthew 25:40).
I agonize over words, the right words to share here. I want to live brave, I want to change the world, to make a difference in the lives of people across the world. In my little world here, and in my big world everywhere.

But where do I start?

The only place I can.

Here. Change must begin with me. I read a quote this week, "Everybody wants to change the world, but nobody wants to change." I don't remember who said it or posted it but it has stuck with me ever since.

It is true, what they say or what Mahatma Gandhi says, "You must be the change you wish to see in the world." I believe it. I want to live it.

I want to be the change, but change requires courage, intentionality, and vulnerability. Am I willing?

That is the question right?

Am I willing?

Am I willing to hear the call, and do the hard thing, and really, truly, with all of my heart change?

Is it possible? Can a person just decide to change?

I don't know, but I know that I must believe it for myself. I believe that a heart so moved by love can do, well, anything.

Nothing is impossible with God, my oldest son is always quick to remind me of that.

Are we willing to be the change we wish to see in the world? Am I willing to be the change I wish to see in my family? Changing is hard and it takes time, but it is time to begin because time is
momentary and precious.

He was willing, are we? Be moved in your heart.
It is time to start believing and stop wondering if it is possible. Believe in God, believe in yourself, believe in change, and live brave. Find out what wrecks you and do something about it.
Join me tomorrow as I will be sharing what wrecks me.

What is it that wrecks you my friend? 
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